I'll be downtown

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Yeah, whatever, I haven't updated in like, fifty years, but that is sooooo school's fault. Honestly. Okay, I'll take partial blame. 'Cause I'm often too lazy to update :P

I'm kind of mad. There's about 12 days of school left (yes, there is, if you take out weekends and Professional Days, there's twelve!) and for some reaaaaason, my wonderful, wonderful, WONDERFUL Socials Teacher has decided to give us THE MOST. Pointless and worthless ON-GOING ASSIGNMENT. And I thought I was ALMOST THROUGH with on-going assignments - Mes Lectures, Cue Cards (GEOGRAPHY WOULD'VE ENDED IT), and my Peer Tutoring Calendar! I've officially finished my lectures and handed in my last calendar, and I would've just had 56 detailed cue cards left to do, but n0oo0o0o0o. Apparently we have to write twenty detailed ESSAY OUTLINES everyday until June 16th, worth 100 marks, and straight up, I'M MOTHER STINKING ANGRY. My teacher called it "forced studying," so that we're ready for the Provincial. Well, you know what!? I don't want to freaking study! I'm so so so so so so SICK of studying and that freaking class and the fact that I'VE NEVER GOTTEN PERFECT ON A UNIT TEST. UUUUUUUGH. Honestly. Screw Socials, because Socials has screwed me over one too many times, my friends (and I'm not joking - I won't explain how because I don't want to get mad all over again, I'm like fuming right now thanks to that :P).

Okay, that was a long vent, sorry. But it's true, and now I'm done with it. I'm just gonna grit my teeth and do what I have to do, do do do do do what I have to do, even though it's not my choice. Goodness, sometimes I wish I didn't care so much. I'm so ready for Summer, because I do not want to work anymore. I'm just waaay too tired with myself to keep on working.

Anyway, this passed week, I unfortunately had a French Practice Provincial and an English Crossgrade Exam all in one day. As you might assume, my hand was killing me by the end of the day. One English essay and two written French essays, all of them not any good. If I told you what I bsed for the Practice French Provincial, you'd laugh in my face, but hey, I think I at least managed to scrap a solid B, definitely not an A because I was just not at all ready for the attack of reading comprehension and essays that was the French Exam. For my Crossgrade I'm going ot assume that I did fairly well. Because if I don't, I'm going to cry, LOL.

The Afternoon of Literature is coming up in like... four days? I'm nervous, nervous, nervous, nervous, nervous. I do not not not not not want to go up in front of people and read my story :'( And it's not that I'm scared of public speaking, because I love that, but having people listen to what I wrote is reaaally uncomfortable and makes me really self-conscious, and it makes me wonder if people actually even liked it, no matter the fact that it won the contest. That was the English Department that picked it for goodess sake. I'd be reading in front of... people BESIDES the English Department. Like students and other winners. That is reaaally deteriorating to one's ego and self-confidence, not kidding :( :S UGH, NOW I'M SO NERVOUS. I have got to stop being such a ninnyyyyyyy.

Summer, summer, summer, summer. Count down the days. It's coming, friends, it's coming. So don't worrrry your pretty little heads about it. Leave all the worrying to me. Fuuuuh.

I'm gone, I gotta go boogie-woogie. In other words... work on a Socials essay outline. Because I gotta. Do do do do what you gotta, I guessss.

Peace up, A-TOWN DOWN.
Gelina *sigh*

Who wants to be right as rain

Reaaaally late post for you guys, I know. But I'm bored, and it's 1:16am on a Friday right now, there's not much else I can do, and besides, I decided I should. But I'm soooooooo sleepy.

I did as much homework as I possibly could today while I was still at school, so that I didn't have much to deal with when I got home home or during the weekend, but I've still got bunches to do. Despite these bunches, I spent a majority of my day after school reading a book which I finished about 30 minutes ago. It was good. Good enough to take me away from my homework, anyway! (But fear not, 'cause I will get to it. Pfft, you know I will.)

I guess I'm going to give a shout out right now for student's who're voting on Student Vote Day to go for the NDP, or to vote for at least anyone. Just NOT the Liberals. Please, please, pleaseee, if you want your parents to keep their jobs and the tuition of your post-secondary schooling to be less foreboding, then vote for NDP or a party that is NOT the Liberals! They are sooo not our best option right now.

I got called down to the Counsellor's office for Lunch during A Block today (not that I actually *heard* my name properly, I only heard my freaking last name, 'cause my freaking peer tutoring kids were so loud), but I went anyway, and guess what? I was recommended to spend a day at UBC, to learn about Engineering. It's for Girls only, but I dunno why. But anyway, they've recommended less than 10 of us, and they've only got three spots, and even though I would love beyond love spending a day at UBC learning stuff, Engineering is harsh harsh harsh not for me, and those nine other girls deserve to go way more than me, and that is a fact (considering the basis for the recommendations was for girls who are "strong in Science and Math." Yeah... if that's the case, I dunno why my name was even brought up!).

I just can't wait right now for things to pick up, and for the school year to be over. I want to have finished reading Othello, done my Crossgrade exam, done all my stupid essays for english, done my Socials Provincial and my French 12 Provincial (which I am worried crapless for, I'm freaking out everytime I think about it); get all this done, before I explode into a million pieces of irritation and frustration. I just want to hand in all my work and be done with all the things that are bothering me right now in terms of school. No more learning new concepts, no more starting new units. I'm getting that burnt out feeling I always get during periods of increased homework during the school year, or during the last two months of school. I am a speeding comet my friends, and I am burning out as we speak. Clear a path, I tell you!

So let's not think of all the stuff I have to get through before the school year is over. Or no, lets. It'll help me organize my thoughts more. So, this is not a homework list (I refuse to write one right now, I've already written it in my planner and I don't want to have to muster my energy just to remember my trunk of work to do):

PT

• Tutoring the verb avoir
• Possibly teaching a lesson (I don't want to but the teacher I help Peer Tutor is pressuring me :'( Ugh)
• Mainly just getting through the class and not die of boredom. Oh, and keep up the 100%, and stop letting it drop to a damn 99&!

FR

• Le projet video
• Le subjonctif (Oh how I fear this concept)
• Des examens orales
• L'ecriture
• L'examen Provincial

SS

• The Cold War Test
• Geography Unit (and Lord knows I suck at Geography)
• Endless, endless, endless amounts of cue cards
• Provincial Exam

ENG

• Finishing Othello (I'm basically done but these last 40 something pages seem IMPOSSIBLE to get through, UGHGUGHGUGHGU)
• Book Club parts (although I've already finished the book, A Tree Grows in Brooklyn, yeah!)
• A million essays that I'm just NOT willing to write at all
• Crossgrade exam
• Afternoon of Literature - Okay, I know, that's not something I have to do in English, but outside of school, but it falls under the English category! And it's something I'm nervous about, so, pfft!

But let's try and focus on the good, shall we? Two more months of school left. I'll look back on this when it's over and see just how easy peasy it all was. I hope. I mean, it will be. I just have to get my act together and stop feeling so burnt out. Ooooh I hate being burnt.

I'm going to go sleep with my iPod tonight, I need some Dashboard Confessional or Fray up in here to clam me d0o0o0own. Oh and btw, I STRONGLY suggest you read "A Tree Grows in Brooklyn," by Betty Smith. It wasn't the book I finished tonight (technically today, as it's past midnight), but a book I finished er, two weeks ago now. It may be hard to get through at first, but it's one of the best books I've ever read in my entire life. And God knows that is definitely saying something. (Oh, and yes, To Kill a Mockingbird is also one of the best books I've ever read in my entire life. Just those two so far!).

I'm going. Goodnight, and if you all listen to me, I bid you good reading! I gotta catch me some zee-to-the-ees. Harrrrrrsh. PEACE UP!