Even at my best, don't wanna let go

So in San Diego and in a previous update, I said that I just got myself into writing lists. (Not exactly true anymore because I hate the idea of wasting paper just to write down a bunch of things I should do... this is what I need a school agenda for!). But anyway one of the things on my "Things To Do in the Summer List" was to update my blog more often! So, not that I don't want to do this or anything, but I thought I ought to do my part (since I want to cross off as many things on that list as possible) and start writing here more often. I've really been neglecting this, I even checked the other night, since the last four months or so, I basically only have one post a month. ONE post a month? That's just really neglectful of me... is neglectful a word? Man I need to update my thesaurus.

So I've been trying to re-read the Harry Potter series all over again, and right now I'm on Harry Potter 3, Prisoner of Azkaban. Definitely way better than the first two books, they were soooo slow for me. I guess after having read HP 5, 6, and 7 so often the reminders of how Quidditch works and all those lame explanations of things in the Magical World we already know about are becoming really old and repetitive. But on a good note I'm watching POA right now and even though it's my least favourite of all the HP movies it's definitely not as bad as I used to think it was... I always said it strayed too much from the first director's orignial sight, changed way too much in terms of setting and the Hogwarts look, but watching it now, I've changed my mind. It wasn't that different, I was just expecting too much the first time I saw it :P Yes, I know, I was wrong, sorry POA.

Lalalala, I wish I wasn't grounded on and off all the time, there are so many things I want to do and I've got to wait for certain intervals between events before I can ask to go out again, lest my dear parents start to think I'm a 'party animal.' Dadadadaa, I'm the farthest thing from that, I'd rather do homework than get wasted, I'm watching POA with my Momma on a Friday night in the summer time, I think I'm def not a party animal :P Wow I do sound like a loser don't I, well excuse me if I like to balance my social life with family time!! Hahaha :P

So recently I'm having the haaaaardest time writing. I have zero inspiration and literally no motivation to do so, I dunno what's gotten into me. It's like all my creative juices left me two years ago and all I could fester up since then was a second place composition in the School Writing Contest. Boooy I am sooo rusty. Have you read on all these author's websites, their tips? They always tell young authors to write and write if they really want to do it, and sooner or later they'll come up with something amazing, and if you truly want to be a writer it's simply stupid not to be writing all the time. Goodness knows I've tried writing over and over again, stupid, simple things, but I get sick of it and frustrated with myself and I feel like I shouldn't even bother. I wonder how they got passed that feeling of being so far passed incapable of producing something worth reading, wonder how they became so famous and successful? Yargh, I'm getting frustrated now. I should change the subject.

Apparently it's going to be 29 degrees tomorrow. How the heck are we going to survive that sucka?

My feet are hot and cold at the same time, my hand aches, and so does my jaw. Lalalalala.

Okay I clearly have nothing else to write about so I'm going to stop writing..... humph.

Saving one world at a time when I'm not completely stuck in a Writer's Block,
Gelina S.