When a heart breaks, no it don't break even

Hullo.

I'll not lie, this week's been tough. Or just the past few days. I dunno. I don't feel like elaborating, I don't wanna think about it or dwell on it in any way at all but if I happen to burst an "ugh" or "as;ldkfja;lskjf" in the middle of this update then you'll know whatever's going on has just popped into my head and I'm frustrated with myself for thinking of it. So now you can count how many times it comes into my head. Wooooooooo. Not.

Shout out to my Dad, who's birthday is today. Love love love love you <3 Maybe I shouldn't say how old he is, that's private, LOL.

AADLKFJASLKDJF.

So hanging around the Mall has made me realize how close school's coming around - I got a whiff of all the school supplies on sale, all the people actually getting a head start and buying all that they need... that's usually a good feeling for me, a great one really, because going back to school and SHOPPING for back to school is like my second Christmas. But right now I just feel resigned. Resigned to my fate that I must graduate and leave high school and work hard and always feel tired and lose myself in books I don't want to lose myself in. Like textbooks, or notebooks or anything school related. I've got that sinking feeling in me, everytime I think about what used to make me so happy. I don't want to go back to school. I want to stay in high school forever :(

Sorry for that really emo thought. I just looove high school too much. I don't want to think about the future or University. (WHICH FREAKING ONE GELINA?) I just don't.

I BOUGHT A TACK BOARD TODAY, YAY! I've been wanting one for as long as Genina's been wanting one, HAHA. Problem is though, I'll probably have to share it with my older sister, and she's undoubtedly going to fill it up with lame college stuff that nobody cares about except for her - lame shhhhhtuff, as per usual. I'm gonna fill it up with my report card and pictures of cool stuff, like zebras. HAHA. Why is my report card NEVER on the fridge?! That's a good question for me to pose you know. My report card is totally fridge worthy, but it always gets stowed away :(

Speaking of my accomplishments on display, I WANT A FREAKING WALL IN THIS HOUSE SO I CAN PUT MY PLAQUES UP SOMEWHERE. They just lay on the sundeck, gathering dust. Who's ever going to see the awards I got if they're just going to sit there doing nothing? I think it's a waste. It's got to go on display so that my kids can see how awesome I was one day. Wow, this is really rather self-centered of me to say, hmm? Well, it's not my fault the plaques are pretty, I honestly think it should be on display largely for that reason... LOL.

lakdjffffffffsdasdfasdf.

SO THE MOVIE, THE UGLY TRUTH? TOTALLY AWESOME. I'm sorry if others didn't think the same but it was SUCH a feel good movie, it even made ME feel good when I thought I wouldn't feel good at all that day. I laughed so hard and clapped my hands at like every hilarious thing, I think all movies should be as feel good as that. LIKE MAMMA MIA TOO. I lurve Mamma Mia. Thank God I've got that on DVD now, HAHA.

One of the things To Do on my Things To Do This Summer list was to be as economically conscious as possible, and I think I can safely say that I have been doing a good job. Although I don't completely finish food that I buy which is a complete waste (where is your money's worth!?) and I've spent more than what I've budgeted, I always go for the cheaper things and consider my bank. I should put this on my list yearly, I bet you I've saved myself some precious dollars! Oooh look at me, I sound like a freaking adult. Whatever.

So I just came to realize that myself and Genina are the only ones in my family that aren't into sports... even my grandparents are into sports, even my own Mom. It's like tennis, basketball and hockey - that is the Holy Trinity of sports in this family, and I'm just not into aaaaaaany of it. Of course I do feel strong pride for Canadian teams, esp the Canucks, but tennis and basketball I couldn't care less about. Wow, some people might kill me for that, HAHA. Sorray. Those sports just aren't my thang.

All right, so I'm going to go. I'm surprised with myself, there isn't as much gibberish here as I thought there would be!

Goooodnight,
Gelina.