So blessed, I can't contain it

I know I said my next blog would be Harry Potter dedicated but too much has happened and so much will happen that it'll just have to wait.

To my brothers and sisters at SCREAM (Surrey Community Reunited and Enlightened by Amazing Moments):

I just have to say that I almost missed this Youth for Christ retreat, and to be honest, I wouldn't have minded skipping out on it at first... but now it's completely different. I feel so tired, and my eyes are still heavy from crying and being awake for hours, but it's not like that anymore. My rope burn, my heavy eyes, my lack of sleep, it was all completely worth it and I mean that hardcore. I'm so glad I didn't miss out, it was an amazing experience. But now I feel so stupid for having the attitude that I've been having for so long, and really, I know things have to change.

I'm trying my best not to disappoint anybody, and I'm determined not to, especially after this, and I'm resolved to be better than what I've been like lately. I'm sorry for disappearing, for acting unlike the simple expectations set upon me, and I didn't deserve a single word of the praise that my brothers and sisters gave me on this last day of SCREAM during that final session. But I appreciated it all the same, I love you guys so much, and I promise I'll be better because that's what you guys deserve. Just know that I loved every second of this retreat and spending it with you guys and the presence of our Lord made it x10 more enjoyable. I promise I'll do better and I love you guys again.

Really though - it was a great time. That Amazing Race was humiliating beyond belief 80% of the time, but despite all the stares and the whispers and the reprimands from people who were too ignorant to see that it was all a teamwork activity, I had the best time ever, and I would do it again in a heart beat (but maybe without rope tied around me this time - that was just the most pain I've felt in forever, no joke). Thank God my group won, or else I would be slightly less happier about this :P GROUP 3 YEEEAH :) Ummm, where was the consequence, btw? HAHA I was forbidden to bring that up but WHATEVER.

Aaaanyway. After mostly everything was clean I totally crashed when I got home. Maybe it's good I didn't go to Tim Horton's afterwards, or else I'd have been up longer with the caffeine in me, when really all I needed was sleep. I don't get it though 'cause I'm still really sleepy, HAHA. I suuuuuck.

School in just a few short days - how can this be? I thought summer just started? Or is that just how it feels :(

OMG OMG OMG. HOW COULD I HAVE FORGOTTEN TO SAY THAT I GOT OFF THE WAIT LIST FOR LAW! So now I'm in that course and I'm sooooo relieved. I needed that course so bad and now I'm in it and can't wait! I think the course load will be reaally interesting and I'll have so much to learn, woot woot!

Don't be fooled at all though... me being excited for Law does not equal me being excited for school. I'm nervous and anxious and just really, really sad :( Ugh why do I always have to talk about this in my blogs, that's just really stupid of me, why talk about it if it depresses the crap out of me? There should be ONE blog where I don't talk about school at least. Jeez louis.

I really should go... maybe attempt to correct my sleeping pattern AGAIN. I don't know why I keep on trying, it clearly never works, especially while I'm still on break. My sleeping pattern only ever corrects itself when I'm back at school and I'm forced to stay awake 'cause of classes and homework. Ew. homework. Haven't said that word in a while.

See you later errrrbody.

Love SCREAM.
Love family.
Love friends.
Love God.

Love,
Gelina :)