Don't put the blame on me, child

Hullo.

I hope this isn't a trend - me blogging late at night. As I write this, it's currently 2:00am exactly, but I have nothing else to do. I'm extremely bored at this moment, but I've got a lot of things swirling around in my mind too. I don't like to delve too much into what's bothering me, but if I think I can speak about it ambiguously throughout this post, I'll give it a try. Sorry if y'all get confused.

So my days since Thursday night have been considerably less enjoyable, the reason of which is legitimately no fault of my own. I mean, I'll take the blame for certain things that happened in the past similar to this, but I've tried hard since then to clean up my act, and this for sure is not something I had caused. It was just you and your willingness to blame things on something completely made up. This whole thing could have been avoided if you'd just talked reasonably and openly about it with me, but instead I get this pre-emptive, unmerited blast of insults because of something that doesn't exist, didn't even happen, or whatever. It's frustrating when I try so hard to prove that that particular thing is no longer true, but no matter what, it'll always go back to that. So I'm not gonna go sniffing anyone's bum for forgiveness 'cause this isn't my mess to fix. It's yours, and if you don't realize that then I don't know if it's worth waiting around for.

Right now I'm watching The Simpsons Movie, which is a lot like one of the shows I watch right now called Under the Dome. To be honest, UTD kinda sucks, considering it's slow build up and insane amount of mystery, but at least I'm still intrigued. Unlike Pretty Little Liars.... that show's storyline is so inter-woven with other crap, the entire thing is beyond convoluted I can't even begin to paint a legitimate timeline for when Alison died to the present. They keep adding tiny details in between that I literally find SO irrelevant, that I'm pretty much just staying tuned to find out who A actually is. Yeah, PLL needs to get it's shit together 'cause it's really pissing me off.

I close tomorrow, which is okay but not okay. 1) I haven't worked since Wednesday night, so I could really use the moolah to get back into things. 2) I haven't seen my lovely coworkers since Wednesday night also, and I actually crave their company. Texting and sending snapchats is simply not enough. LOL. But then there's the fact that I hate closing with the possibility that the openers haven't done shit to maintain the store, and having to shoulder all the responsibility for making sure clothing goes smoothly. Well, that doesn't sound too different from what I've always been doing I guess, so whatever.

The Teen Choice Awards were tonight, which is something I literally had no interest for, except when my older sis suddenly turned the channel to it because Twitter informed her that my precious Lea Michele was accepting an award and dedicating it to recently deceased ex-boyfriend and former co-star Cory Monteith. For anyone who doesn't know, Cory Monteith was like one of my favourite people in Hollywood and in my Top 3 (Top 3 would-be-boyfriends, I guess. It's not really a Top 3 Hot Guy List b/c let's face it, he's more cute than anything). And when Lea was accepting the award I got so sad but also happy that she was taking it all with such grace, I mean damn, that girl can do no wrong in my eyes. I will pretty much only keep watching Glee if Lea Michele stays in it. She's the only thing that makes that show for me these days, for real.

So I went to Leiana's house to bake on Thursday, like I mentioned in my previous post. After the flour and powder and fun, we watched Paranormal Activity 4, which I surprisingly really liked. It was scary in certain parts but I mostly just liked the way the story was being told. Anyway, ever since then I've been trying to convince my fam that we should get Netflix because that's where we watched it on, but my whole fam thinks it's pointless and a waste of time. BUT HOW CAN IT BE, WHEN IT'S ONLY 7.99 A MONTH. For all of the things you get, like American television shows and full seasons of past tv series and even childhood movies, IT'S TOTALLY WORTH THE 8 DOLLARS. The day my fam finally gets Netflix, will be the day I probably stop using this, because I will be watching it and using it all day errday. So maybe for this blog's sake, I'll hope not to get it too soon :P

Tonight me and my fam went to Denny's for dinner. There was very little to eat at home, and Rida planted it in their heads that we wanted to breakfast food, so although I would've been fine with like, McDonald's or Pho, my rents took us to the 24 Hour diner and we had a good 'ol time :) I love hearing stories about back home in the Philippines, it really makes me miss the place. Granted, my idea of the Philippines is slightly biased because when I go home to my relatives, they're the kinds of people who own big houses and have drivers and go out for dinner all the time - in simpler terms, they're filthy rich. So of course I wanna go home to them - they treat me so well and I love them. But don't get me wrong, I know the place is full of 20 million poverty stricken people, it's just hard to stay in the poorer areas 'cause I get reminded that this isn't vacation for some people and that it's every day life. I'm just used to living well, I could definitely not live the life that others do.

I realize that like, 3/5 of this post have been me complaining, but I guess that's just the mood I'm in.

Post title is from the song Red Hands by Walk Off the Earth. I'm sure every Canadian has heard it's hipster/rockstar beat on the radio, but I know most people haven't. Song is very relevant to my feels right now as well.

Oh look, The Simpsons Movie just ended as I typed that last bit. Looks like I missed the whole thing, writing out this post. Blast you, blog.

Only the credits now.

Talk to y'all some other time.
-Gelina